Taking Risks

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I don’t consider myself a big risk taker.  I’ve never had a huge desire to go skydiving or cliff jumping,  I’m too cheap to gamble and I’m too practical to not “play it safe” in most areas of my life.  As a result, I was struck by a quick interaction I had with Dr. Dan after Rudy’s heart cath back in July that has left me pondering what it means to take risks in life.

You may recall that it was deemed necessary during Rudy’s last heart cath to attempt to place stents in Rudy’s aorta…a somewhat risky procedure as Drs. Dan and Harake needed to get the large stents to his aorta through the only open artery Rudy has left in his groin.  There was much discussion during pre-op about saving the femoral artery by pursuing surgical options to gain access to the aorta instead.  There was more discussion with Dr. Dan by phone from the cath lab as well as a consultation with Rudy’s heart surgeon during the procedure that resulted in a unanimous decision to go for it through the groin.  We were relieved when the procedure was over and very excited that it was successful.  While Rudy was getting settled in recovery, Dr. Dan met with us to discuss the details of the procedure and brief us on where things stood, etc.  We were all pretty giddy by the outcome and as we got up to leave and get back to Rudy I said “Congratulations Dr. Dan.  You did it!  Well done.”…without hesitation he said (something like/not a direct quote) “No, you’re the ones to be congratulated!  You were willing to take a big risk and you gave us your consent.”.

Risk-takers?  Us?  I guess it’s all in how you look at it because it sure didn’t feel like we were the ones taking a risk…it felt more like, for Rudy’s sake, we had no choice.  BIG leaps of faith sure don’t seem risky when you feel you don’t have any other options and, in looking back, there sure haven’t been many options in our journey with Rudy.  I’ve mentioned it before but at every critical crossroads (especially in those early months), we never really had options in treatment…the road was laid out for us one step at a time as Rudy’s body dictated the direction we journeyed and, when needed, we gave consent for treatment when the risk of not doing something became greater than the risk involved in the procedures themselves…pretty straight forward…harrowing but straight forward.

Believe me, I’d jump out of a plane, dive head first off a cliff or place a big fat bet on a blackjack table risking millions in a heartbeat if it would somehow change the course we’re on with Rudy.  We saw Dr. Harake today for Rudy’s routine echocardiogram.  All the activities that fill our family’s crazy calendar in the weeks between appts with Dr. Harake are such a fun and healthy distraction from Rudy’s reality and I find the cardiology check-ins leave me feeling a little raw.  A strange juxtaposition as I really appreciate talking with Dr. Harake and having Rudy monitored so closely every two months but I do walk away reminded that Rudy’s heart is in a constant process of failing…the constant dull ache in my heart resurfaces and the burden feels a little bit heavier.  I’m grateful, though, that Rudy is managing it all well and thriving…grateful for the respite of fun in between the reality checkpoints and so grateful Rudy is in good hands.  Rolf and I may very well be taking risks on Rudy’s behalf as we try to navigate this crazy course but I’m so profoundly grateful that we’re not shouldering the burden alone…Rudy is surrounded by an army of friends and family who pray, a host of gifted medical professionals who skillfully treat and the God of hope who sustains, strengthens and grants peace in the midst of it all!   I might be a little weepy tonight but I’m eager to discover what fun distractions tomorrow will bring.  🙂  Thanks for praying dear ones!

Here are a few of the rich distractions from last week…

Woo Hoo!  Maxo passed his  permit test at the DMV!!

Woo Hoo! Maxo passed his permit test at the DMV!!

Sadly, Rudy's battery operated cool hog died recently but was replaced with his new birthday present!!  A Go-Glider bike…he's quickly getting the hang of it!  :)

Sadly, Rudy’s cool, battery operated hog died recently so we replaced it with his new birthday present!! A Go-Glider bike…he’s quickly getting the hang of it! 🙂

"Friday Night Lights" - Geyling Style!  Rudy and Rolf at DP's Homecoming Football Game...

“Friday Night Lights” – Geyling Style! Rudy and Rolf at DP’s Homecoming Football Game…

Wilson was homecoming royalty at Friday's game - one of the nominated princes!

Wilson was homecoming royalty at Friday’s game – one of the nominated princes!

Crowning of the Queen!!

Crowning of the Queen!!

The princess with whom he was paired (and good friend Natalie) was crowned Homecoming Queen.  So fun!!

The princess with whom he was paired (and good friend Natalie) was crowned Homecoming Queen. So fun!!

Homecoming fun continued on Saturday night with a pre-dance photo op at the beach with Max & friends!

Homecoming fun continued on Saturday night with a pre-dance photo op at the beach with Max & friends!

After a quick dinner for the rest of us, Olivia babysat Rudy all by herself so Rolf and I could go to the dance and escort Wilson during the crowning of the king ceremony!  She bathed him, g-tube fed him and gave him his meds!! Well done Liv!!!

After a quick dinner for the rest of us, Olivia babysat Rudy all by herself so Rolf and I could go to the dance and escort Wilson during the crowning of the king ceremony! She bathed him, g-tube fed him and gave him his meds!! Well done Liv!!!

Lots more fun than my own Homecoming!  Ha Ha  :)

Lots more fun than my own Homecoming! Ha Ha 🙂

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17 Responses to “Taking Risks”

  1. Sloan Says:

    Awe Trishie, I sure love you sister!!! Still holding Rudy close to my heart in prayer sweet one! So fun to see the kids growing up so much! Miss you dearly!

  2. Joyce Says:

    Your posts always leave me happy and sad. I love being an extended part of your “Blog Family” and I love hearing about family adventures. I am so sad for you all to live through this road with Rudy. I know Rudy would not be here if it WEREN’T for the great Geyling family. I love seeing that Olivia is able to do so much for Rudy now. You are all amazing and my prayers continue. Remember I now have a guest room and you are always welcome.

  3. murphyrose Says:

    My dear darling friend…. Thank you for sharing the raw hard times as well as the happy times. My love, prayers, and cheers are with each of you. I miss my Wednesdays with Rudy!!! Xxxoo

  4. Kelly Says:

    Wow, I’m happy and so deeply touched at the same time looking at these photos. I’m in awe of you guys and you’re always in my prayers.

  5. Cora Connelly Says:

    Cannot imagine the bipolar emotions that the photos and reality provoke… holding all of you in my heart and in prayer all the time.

  6. Donna Woolard Says:

    Trish…..always loving your postings. I continue to pray for Rudy and your family every night since Rudy’s birth. I sometimes hold my breath when I see your posting…I love the pictures….I love all of you! Love, Donna

  7. Ann Dokken Says:

    So thankful for all these fun memories that you are having with all your kids…..I see jewels in the crowns for all of you when you reach the pearly gates. Continuing to pray for you dear ones.

  8. Gracie Says:

    Every day is precious, isn’t it! Hugs for that aching heart!!! So impressed with Rudy’s new bike, and that Olivia babysat for you all!!! Wilson and Max are so handsome and charming….what a beautiful family. So honored to know you all!

  9. Judy Salkeld Says:

    Tears and smiles. Prayers for you all.

  10. Pat Says:

    Prayers for all of you, as always!

  11. Linda H Says:

    Judy says it for me: tears and smiles…..thank you for your honesty and openness……what an amazing team is the Geyling family!!
    Much love and many prayers.

  12. Lin Says:

    ……and why am I NOT surprised that Wilson would have this honor? Just another indicator of the inner ‘heart’ that is so evident to the world of each and every one of the ‘Geyling Family’…….I am so proud to know you!

  13. Grandma Jo Says:

    My family is so blessed to be a body of believers. We know the power that is upholding all of us (soon to number 20) and keeping Rudy in His hands as he develops — Thank you Lord.

  14. oma719 Says:

    Love you from far away !!!

  15. Kris Says:

    Dear Rolf and Trish – Thank you for being so willing to share YOUR HEARTS as you support Rudy’s. The risks, when it comes to love, are those we always take. Blessings to you! Kris

  16. pastordt Says:

    Ah, sweetie. How I wish you didn’t carry that heavy heart. But you do, and you will. It is what it is. And you all are dealing so very well with what is. These pictures speak volumes about all of you – thanks for each one!

  17. Joann Saraceno Says:

    Hi Trish… Boy… the highs and lows of everyday life! So confident that our Blessed Hope is with us each step of the way! Hugs to you and your family. Jo

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